Why can't I find the words to write down what I'm feeling...? My father is here and I can't help but resent him. If he'd never left my mother... he never would've found Sis and Adel would rule the world. But it hurts more than anything else in the world. But it all comes down to the damned if you do and damned if you don't I guess. But it still doesn't changed the fact that he could have gone back to Winhill later. Maybe, just maybe I wouldn't have ended up in that orphanage... But I never would have met Ellone if that hadn't happened. Perhaps I would have been a normal kid and not this heavily skilled warrior who doesn't know how to feel anything.
... I don't know what to think right now. What would Kiros say if he were still here? I just have to remember that this isn't the same Laguna that was here before.
Forget it. I'm going to bed. I'm glad the others can't read this. Selphie's hounding me enough as it is.
Fai, can you do something about those girls who come into the Cafe to bother me every single day? I'm not that special that it warrants a fanclub of squealing teenage girls following me around everywhere.
We've already been through this you idiot. There's no need to it going until the day that we day if we aren't already dead. Find someone else to lay your perverted desires for attention on before I'm forced to silence you for good.
We have a dog now... Said dog likes to sleep on top of me and chew on my boots. Zell, it's time we started training the pup. Other than that... I've been looking for a job for the past couple weeks with little to no luck. I suppose I'll find something eventually but not right now it seems.
[ooc: the shock! the horror! Squall is speaking more than one word! :O]